There's something inside...

... me!

Something that keeps me driving! Something that doesn't let negativity linger more than sixty seconds.

There i was. Disappointed. Worried. And then just a few moments later something happened. Like it happens with every thought leading to another... leading to yet another one. Some faces floated in front of my eyes. Some memories were revisited. Some fights remembered. Some laughs cherished.

And there i was. Smiling. Like i don't give a damn what happens tomorrow.

Because i know whatever happens, you're going to be there. You, who've always been there...

Thank you. For being my friend.

That something inside me... is your sweet memory. :)

Shutting Down...

So i need to get a grip!

I've done this before... so I can do this again, right?

But it was so much more simple all the previous times.

But in the end it's all just in the head. Or is it?

But why... oh why does it have to be something i can never have? This is the third bloody time. And i hate it! Will it always be like this? What's wrong? Am i too judgmental? Or am i too naive? It can't be both. Because never once did the choice make sense!

But again... I'm going back tonight. Won't think of you before I go to sleep tonight. Won't think of you right after i wake up tomorrow.

Yes. I'm going back to being myself again.

Yes. Because i need to survive.

flickering connections...

building memories of your brittle feelings... your expressions... your gestures... your moves, your reciprocations and that favorite song of yours.

It's painful.

It doesn't matter.

It hurts.

But it doesn't really matter...

*edit*
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Now playing: Bap Kennedy - Moonlight Kiss
via FoxyTunes

The difference...

... is clear.

Giving up is just not an option anymore!

It sucks though... Having too many things and a single time dimension.

Designing...

... randomness can be so relaxing!!! :D

What is love?

... I never thought, i will ask this question ever again, to myself!

I thought i had the answer...

But...

here I am... :)

Closing Time...

... Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end! :)

Do you remember...

The time when we walked by the beach... the shimmering moonlight glowing on our faces, brighter than its reflection in the waves...

And the time when i sat with you in the midst of the crowd... speaking nothing... just feeling you... gazing into your eyes and trying hard not to blink...

And the time when you said my name... and then I said yours... and then you slept off in my arms...

And when you came running towards me... filling the street with such laughter that every single person was looking at us... and hugged me so hard that every single one of them smiled...

but i cried...

Because you don't remember...

Because none of it ever happened!